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inkessential
I just love how insecure I am. If she is doing what I keep thinking she is with him, I really have no room to bitch. Hell, we aren't even together..

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I'm sure we all do it, post something, hoping, wanting..someone, anyone to respond. A simple hey, how are you? What's up? I miss you. Such simple questions and statements that would make all the difference. I sit here in solitude, wanting  someone to talk to. I'm such a pathetic excuse for a human being.

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inkessential
I don't even know how to type this out..

Just friends..
inkessential
All the time I've been waiting, all the tears that have been shed just for you, my heart and soul, all thrown down the drain, the garbage disposal has been activated and it's all running out to the ocean. I just don't know what to do.

I miss you more then I've ever missed you
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The feeling I got when I held you close, our hearts beating as one..taste of your lips, your scent..everything..I feel so empty without you..

I'm so deeply in love with you, and you're out of my reach and it's killing me.


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inkessential
Here we go again,  I miss you again, a lot.. Around so many friends and I can't even smile, I feel a piece of me missing, and I know that piece is you. We're growing distant, and you won't even talk to me, it's pretty depressing, not gonna lie. I miss you.

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I'm not going to lie..I'm afraid of what I'm getting myself into, devoting myself to someone at such a young age, when I have so many more options, I might be cornering myself in and just asking to get fucked over..Assumptions have never gotten me anywhere, so I'm just going to set it aside, maybe this is different..maybe this is real. 

Duuuuuuuuuuuude
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My eye won't stop hurting! Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
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Well, things are looking up
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We finally talked for more than two texts, and from what I can tell she really does feel the way I do.

She has a phone now, and internet again, giving me a way to talk to her more often, thankfully..Now maybe I won't miss her as much as I have been, doubt it though, it's just so different talking to someone in such a way compared to seeing them face to face, I'm fine with this though, at least I'm not completely left without her. Ha, I just know when I am with her..I'll show her these entries to see what she thinks..

I love you Mary Jones, I really do.


Gah.
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At times I really wonder if she even misses me at all.

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